counter entry?

the previous entry was posted by a girl that i dont recognize.
too much drama. arghhhh!!!
so, i now welcome the real alithea back to this simple place to write nonsense. ha-ha

yeah, i think one entry is enough to bring myself back into reality.
like my lecturer told me this afternoon, "there is no point crying over spilled milk"
so, im going to take her advice and stop wallowing in self-pity and annoying people at the same time.
to those who were annoyed at the overly-dramatic-alithea, please forgive her, i think she wasn't herself today.sad but true.haha

so the lesson i learnt today : never let alithea be all depressed because she can annoy people and make them stress too.

ps, people, im fine. im not going crazy, if that is what u all are thinking.haha

*end*

nothing more i can say.

i failed my econs 5 today. i tried thinking of a better way to put it, but i think it's better left simple. not really looking forward for econs 6.
i really have nothing much to write today, but i thought that it would be better if i let it all out.
so much can be said about the things that have been going through my mind.
even right now, while writing i feel insecure, useless and blank.
i have come to the point where i can no longer see my future, or see where i stand,
i don't even have a clue of what to do next.

people say im strong and i'll always get through all the tough times.
i once believe them. not anymore.
my mind is blank, my body feels numb and my fingers seem to have a mind of its own. writing down feelings that my face cannot express, my mouth cannot utter.

i feel like a failure. but i know that i can learn from this.
why do we fall down?
so that we can learn to pick ourselves up.
i cannot depend on people's "it's okay(s)" or their "you'll do better the next time(s)" or even their "don't worry(s)"

i shall depend on God and cling onto Him, for i know if this is the way He has set out for me, i know He has a plan. though it may not be something i would have prefer, i think He would know best.
God is always faithful, He will provide, in His own time.
and i whole heartedly believe Him.

"What is more, I consider everything a loss compared to the surpassing greatness of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord"
(Philippians 3 : 8)

"And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast"
(1 Peter 5 : 10)


*end*

i shall go study more and sleep less.

top 5 ways to make yourself cranky every morning

my list of the top 5 things you can do to yourself when you want to wake up cynical, sarcastic and easily irritated by david's-sometimes-not-appropriate-comments, e.g. "can i press your pimple?" he just made my day.great.

5. don't get enough sleep the night before.

4. don't get enough sleep the previous night.

3. don't get enough sleep the previous previous night.

2. don't get enough sleep the previous previous previous night.

and no. 1 :
sleep at 2am every night,err day, because of exams, which would result in a lack of sleep.

then you would have the perfect morning, getting annoyed at the unnecessary things david has to say.hilarious.

*end*

ps, i'm still not getting enough sleep. hurray for me.

alithea's day out

first, i have a confession to make : i really don't like moral, never liked it since SPM.

moral is so annoying, kill me now.
"here's a knife, do something with a knife"

however, i'll study it, to get the results. i'll try to make moral my friend. =S
i'll tttrrrryyyyyy.

why am i freaking out for moral? simple : fear of the UNKNOWN. ngeh!

anyway, back to topic. about my day out. today marks the day i officially end my a levels trials excluding tomorrow's moral exams.ngeh.

but before we go into details about my little outing, i would like to share something about myself.

i think my bladder has a mind of its own. seriously. i knew i drank a lot of water in the morning, so before i went in to take my lit 6 exam, i went to the toilet, just to be save. u know, so that u don't have the urge in the middle of writing your incredibly not short-not long essay.
however, even with my quick trip to the loo, my bladder managed to fill itself up right at the moment i was finishing my 1st question of the exams paper.
so, i have come to the conclusion that my bladder, works in mysterious ways.
or, it becomes very 'efficient' (quoting Wen Shan) during exams. great.
i shall make more trips to the bathroom then. =)

well, the outing.
we were all doing the moral project and antony was REALLY hungry. shan on the other hand, was having writer's block. nigel was writing about the feed wen shan fund. i was stoning and talking nonsense, as usual. =)

so we decided to go to bangsar to makan. and i suggested we go to Marco's to makan, 'cause i wanted to eat pizza.mmmmm.
(don't tell pree, she'll be angry we didn't call her along) haha
after eating we went and jalan-jalan in BV 2. then i went into L'occitane (i think it's spelled like that) to search for a birthday present for my aunt. and the crazy shop sells products with a starting price of at least a hundred ringgit. CRAZY!!!
u think money grows on trees ar?

however, i can say, i was productive today. i bought, well antony and i bought a pair of socks which we think is pretty awesome and out of this world. retail therapy ROCKS!!!!


yeah, it's socks. not shoes. ngeh, ngeh.

so this is the highlight of my day. hilarious.

ps, when ignored by shan and antony during lunch/dinner at Marco's, take pictures of your ice lemon tea, to reduce boredom. =)



*end*

funny feelings

i think i have reach a point where i can say, i shall not put anything else in my brain but let it rest and pray to God it will remember everything.

i always have this funny feeling that if i read something then switch to something else, i'll forget what i just read before that something else.
i also always have this funny feeling that if i talk to much, the information in my brain would flow out and vanish with every word i say.

strange i know, but that is how i feel.seriously, this sucks!
how do we study for unprepared poetry? do we prepare something unprepared? or should we just be unprepared?
im confused! =S

lesson for today : never leave alithea alone with oranges, she'll do this :



i have done weirder things, trust me. =)


*end*
im going to bed..zzzZZZzzzz

a bored sphinx

A Bored Sphinx

Riddles did do you falter,
No answer given taken true,
Your life the sphinx did alter,
Three legs at set was you.

Will she tear your heart out?
Or will she play you like a rat,
And before any feeble shout,
Snuff you out, instantly like that.

The spoken riddle's speaker all alone,
Seeking that can tell a true lie,
And who's logic does condone,
A sheepish yes, and wish to die.

Maybe sphinx, wait for a preacher,
Let him lecture his "gospel hall",
And then can you proudly feature,
A clerical collar on your trophy wall.


courtesy of tarrant kwok,
the tropical poet

ps, i really like this poem, it's really funny. LOL!
thanks tarrant! =)

regina

we were deciding whether we wanted to eat, regina and i. it was 3 something in the afternoon.
our conversation went like this :

alithea : to eat or not to eat (we're learning Hamlet, so can't blame me)
regina : ..........
alithea : ok, you decide. whatever you say, i'll follow.
regina : i think........YOU SHOULD GIVE ME ALL YOUR MONEY! *with her evil grin*
alithea : yeah right! -_-"'

then, we both started laughing. we ended up not going. great.

what i learnt today : never let regina decide whether we should eat or not, she'll extort money from you instead. LOL!


*end*

ps, why do i always get inspired to write when im in the shower?
next thing you know, my email would be showerwriter@.........
(hey sounds pretty cool, it will be contemplated) haha
hilarious.

day's advice

when you need something the thing is not there,but when you don't need it, it'll always be there, staring you in the face.

what i learnt today : never neglect your business studies formula sheet, or it'll turn on you and merajuk somewhere in your whole big pile of books.

i think its hiding somewhere between my pile of books and stack of papers, but i just don't know where.
hmmp, never knew papers had feelings too. =S so sensitive!

word of advice, never hurt your lecture notes's feelings because you might need them for exams.


*end*

broken erhu

She caressed the erhu,
With nothing but passion,
Hating the unknown, who,
Took her bow and vision.

She is blind to the whispers,
The guqin a snapping tortoise,
Meanings skewed as he alters
Tempo to match her sad voice.

Drops of syllables connect
Her tearful words together,
And as faceless crowds clap,
She dies inside a little faster.

Thrown roses are meaningless,
As she cannot pull music again,
Her loss sorrowfully soundless,
Singing vocals pining in vain.

courtesy of tarrant kwok.
the tropical poet.

Bob's day out.

today is my little nephew's birthday and i miss him so much.
my parents and sister decided to bring little Bob as he is now known as out of the many name we gave him for a day out.
From Jared, to Mark, to Jeremy to Ezekiel. so funny, little Shuan Han must be wondering why all these big people calling him different names every week. haha. he is now called Bob because he shaved his head and now looks like Bob the builder. Lol. hilarious!
little bob is now 1 year old.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHUAN HAN!

so today, little bob's day out.
they most probably went to megamall. thats like the only place to go in Kuantan. =S
according to my mum, they went and eat McD's and he ate french fries and drank black-black aka coke. (inside joke)haha

so, here is what they did.
1. eat at Mcdonalds
2. bob went and chose his birthday present. its apparently a musical turn-table, i guess its every little boy's dream to be a DJ and make scratch noises.
3. they went to cold storage, and he 'helped' with the loading of stuff. and tried a vitagen sample.haha.

then i guess they did some other stuff which i dont know, i know all this is also because my mum told me so.im so jealous! i wish i could celebrate with him too. im sad now.

oh yeah, my mum just smsed me and said that he tried out his first feel of a golf stick. my dad wants to bring out the Tiger Woods in him i guess.

i cant think of any other thing else to write so im just gonna put up pictures of Bob.haha the name still amuses me. =)

he knows how to camwhore too.

i like this picture.

when he was younger

enough stalker pictures of my nephew for one day. but i still think he is so cute.

*end*

sighs

tomorrow's dream?

today marks the day, i write more than usual.
as i am depressed, emo-ing, i feel the need to let it all out onto my tiny little space on this blog.
im depressed and i found out that i forgot a very important point in my econs exams, which really sucks as i really knew the point.i really have no idea how i could have forgotten about it.

life is a constant reminder of what we failed to do in the past.

and it is difficult for me to accept. in a lot of ways i really want to do well, now seeing this trials, im starting to doubt whether i was ever made to do well.
i feel miserable and sad. cant write anymore.
how am i suppose to concentrate on business studies when my mind is filled with all these problems.HELP!!!

ps. when depressed eat chocolate.

self-praise therapy

since i am so depressed after today's exams, i shall make myself feel better by praising myself.


*end*

top 5 ways to make yourself depressed.

according to my Oxford advance learner dictionary, the word depressed means very sad and without hope,
thus i hereby make a list of 5 things that would most evidently make me depressed.

5. eat too much, then complaining about it, then starts feeling bloated, hurts, becomes sad.

4. listening to emo, sappy, i-can't-live-without-you love song for too long.

3. not getting the shoes you've been wanting for a long time. (people don't seem to get hints)

2. I get really bad results, due to reasons that are yet to be looked into.

and last but certainly the most depressing :

1. sitting for an Economics 6 paper at 1pm in the afternoon and scrambling your hands off.
(no time no time no time!!!!!!!)
i think the people who made the exams paper and set the time are sadists. seriously so much to write so little time. my hand would now like to have a massage. =)


writing this top 5 list has made me even more depressed, just thinking about it. i therefore end my list by saying, to be a happier person, try to avoid the 5 things mentioned above. however, if you can't avoid them, then we shall all be depressing people, wearing black, to moan our generation who can't seem to answer econs paper 6. my great depression.

lesson learnt, never attempt an econs 6 paper if you are unsure of the result.

sad.

*end*

alithea's normal day

alithea's 1st alarm clock rings, she hits snooze button.

alithea's 2nd alarm clock rings, she switches it off.

looks at the time, forces herself to wake up.

gives wake up call to antony, her friend cum driver. dials number, is greeted with his tweety bird caller ringtone. "i am a little towns bird, my name is tweety pie,......"

alithea calls until he hangs up, telling her that he has woken up.

she opens her eyes to see if anyone is using the bathroom, if there is she takes a short nap. if not, she pushes herself out of bed, stands up, walks outside, takes towel, switches on the light and the heater for the bathroom.

hangs towel, brushes teeth. stares at face for awhile, sees that her hair is a mess, but just grunts, never a person who talks much in the wee hours of the mornings.

chooses the day's apparel, brings it to the bathroom.

takes bath. combs crazy hair.

hangs towel outside in the living room, to dry.

wears name tag, watch and all the other gears she wears on her wrist.

brings school bags and books outside. puts in bottle of water. then goes and have breakfast : normally bread with the choice spread of the day.

waits for bread to toast,clips crazy hair with her hair pins. she hates her fringe.

*bing* toaster goes off, spread whatever she chose and eats it.takes a cup of water with her.

sits at the couch, munches on bread.too tired to care about her surroundings, just sits there and stares into space.

after eating, cleans utensils. sits back down.brings handphone out, puts on stomach,for better reflects when it rings.closes eye, naps for awhile.

handphone driller sound goes off. *grrrrrrlllll* looks at it.
messege : antony
Downstairs.

goes out of the house, takes the elevator down, waits for antony for awhile, then heads off to college.

*end*

-how uneventful -