breaking point

i feel numb


*end*

that day

that day,
i was so bored.
i became lazy.
i became so lazy that i couldnt do anything else but be bored.

yay, for me!


*end*

aftermath

i feel like a small fish,
small fry,
no uhmmp.
depressed.


and now for the tale of the injured middle finger. i cannot stress enough about the middle finger.
its been a month, and it still looks about the same. only thing is, the black part has grown a little bigger, longer? my fingernail is growing i guess, injured or not. =)


*end*

of books

...though I have not many, I have more that I ever look into.

-Bingley
-Pride and Prejudice

its pretty true. i have a few books sitting on my shelf not read.
they're calling me.


*end*

for a friend

found this when i was flipping through my law notes.
forgot i even wrote it.

I stand at the corner,
trying to make myself
feel more comfortable,
but the place itself is not.

I look out,
the sky is gloomy
the day is about to end,
everything's seems a blur.

I hold my hands,
rub them twice,
to keep the warmth
but it's no use, the air
is already cold itself.

I sit down at my corner,
things just flashed by,
my friend is crying
clasp hands, disbelief.

I stand up again, I walked
towards him,
I stop, I don't know what to say,
I don't even know what to do.
I turn back to my chair
and sit.

I stare blankly into space,
I feel the pain, I
feel the loss.
I try to say something
nothing comes out.

I walk to my friend,
sit by him,
hold his hand,
say nothing,
just to be there,
just to be there.

*end*

ps, quite emo i know, but that was how i felt during those moments.
i kinda like this, don't really know why though. =)

taking a break

i don't know but everyone seems to be doing this so i thought i would give it a try too =)
funny, when people tag me, i don't wanna do, but when nobody tags me, i want to do.

so it's called 50 first reactions? or something like that.


1. Beer: i don't like

2. Food: my mum's, the best

3. Relationships: my deadline - 24 (inside joke)

4. Crush: biscuits under blueberry cheesecakes =)

5. Power Rangers: and masak-masak, i used to watch and play when i was 5

6. Life: a roller coaster ride

7. The President: of the United States of America!

8. Yummy: mum's chicken pie, yum!

9. Cars: that are shinny and fast.

10. Movie: i have only watched 2 this year. sad i know.

11. Halloween: oooo, pumpkins and candies. hehe

12. Sex: Room in our easter crossroads. "what were you thinking, hahaha"

13. Religion: Christianity

14. Hate: bad internet connections

15. Fear: frogs and cicaks

16. Marriage: white wedding gowns =)

17. Blondes: are, maybe not that dumb. hehe

18. Slippers: my slippers cost me RM3.50 only, im a good shopper.

19. Shoes: Converse!!

20. Asians: are more hardworking, no offense

21. Past time: sleeping

22. One night stand: never could see the point

23. My cell phone: needs a new phone-dom, hehe

24. Smoke: fire?

25. Fantasy: all-you-can-eat-buffet here i come!

26. College: ending soon

27. High school Life: i had some fun

28. Pajamas: only for my bed

29. Stars: sings, 'twinkle, twinkle little star, how i wonder what you are...'

30. Center: stage, the movie

31. Alcohol: too much, can kill your brain cells

32. The word love: 1 Corinthians 13: 4 - 8

33. Friends: colour my world

34. Money: isn't everything

36. Time: and tide waits for no man

37. Divorce: bad communication

38. Dogs: snowy (my cousins' dog) doesn't like me

39. Undies: ropa interio!

40. Parents: know what's best

41. Babies: are chubby and cute

42. Ex: perience, makes us better persons.

43. Song: Dancing in the moonlight, my favourite song at the moment

44. Color: blue

45. Weddings: white

46. Pizza: extra cheese, extra olives. yum!

47. Hangout: Bangsar

48. Rest: sleeping

49. Goal: Barcelona FC!!!

50. Inspiration: helps me draw. =)


phew! not bad =)


*end*

life examination

if only death was that colourful,
and that easy.
unfortunately its neither colourful nor easy.

for a long time she thought,
she had it all.
for a long time she thought,
she knew what to do.
for a long time she thought,
she could do anything by herself.
But life has a funny way,
of letting you know that you're wrong,
very wrong.
it reminds her to hold on,
to the One who created all things.

*end*

ps, dont worry. i just like the picture.

reconstruction

i think i need to restructure my life.
it has been a mess lately,
and im not so sure of the cause.

my year hasn't been the best one...yet.
im waiting for a brighter day,
where i can smile and show off my teeth.
but at the moment life's like that.


alithea : i think i want to be emo today.
annora : why?
alithea : because i want to have a variation of moods.


being happy all the time, takes a lot out of you.
and makes life kinda boring, happily.


*end*