nothing more i can say.

i failed my econs 5 today. i tried thinking of a better way to put it, but i think it's better left simple. not really looking forward for econs 6.
i really have nothing much to write today, but i thought that it would be better if i let it all out.
so much can be said about the things that have been going through my mind.
even right now, while writing i feel insecure, useless and blank.
i have come to the point where i can no longer see my future, or see where i stand,
i don't even have a clue of what to do next.

people say im strong and i'll always get through all the tough times.
i once believe them. not anymore.
my mind is blank, my body feels numb and my fingers seem to have a mind of its own. writing down feelings that my face cannot express, my mouth cannot utter.

i feel like a failure. but i know that i can learn from this.
why do we fall down?
so that we can learn to pick ourselves up.
i cannot depend on people's "it's okay(s)" or their "you'll do better the next time(s)" or even their "don't worry(s)"

i shall depend on God and cling onto Him, for i know if this is the way He has set out for me, i know He has a plan. though it may not be something i would have prefer, i think He would know best.
God is always faithful, He will provide, in His own time.
and i whole heartedly believe Him.

"What is more, I consider everything a loss compared to the surpassing greatness of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord"
(Philippians 3 : 8)

"And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast"
(1 Peter 5 : 10)


*end*

i shall go study more and sleep less.

sighs

tomorrow's dream?

today marks the day, i write more than usual.
as i am depressed, emo-ing, i feel the need to let it all out onto my tiny little space on this blog.
im depressed and i found out that i forgot a very important point in my econs exams, which really sucks as i really knew the point.i really have no idea how i could have forgotten about it.

life is a constant reminder of what we failed to do in the past.

and it is difficult for me to accept. in a lot of ways i really want to do well, now seeing this trials, im starting to doubt whether i was ever made to do well.
i feel miserable and sad. cant write anymore.
how am i suppose to concentrate on business studies when my mind is filled with all these problems.HELP!!!

ps. when depressed eat chocolate.