probably

A book is like a garden carried in the pocket - Chinese Proverb

if i say that i dont judge a book by its cover...i'm probably lying.



ps. i think eminem's new songs are awesome!!





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paper planes

i like white paper planes.

i think we are all like little paper planes
we get folded so many times with worries,
we get so heavy, we cannot fly.

but if we smoothen out some of that folds,
we realise that we can actually fly pretty far.

dont be afraid to dream,
you only have one life,
so, do something extraordinary =D
be a legend in your own right.


*end*

where i dont have to think

It is in my sleep, I find my solace.
It is in my dreams, I find my peace.

*end*

life's wheel of fortune

found some pretty cool quotes online. helped me a lot. hope it does the same for some of you.


In the game of life it's a good idea to have a few early losses, which relieves you of the pressure of trying to maintain an undefeated season. -Bill Baughan


Life is like a piano. What you get out of it depends on how you play it. -Tom Lehrer


so, if you think that life cannot possibly be worst than it is now, just remember the first quote
and if you think that we have no say or no control over our lives or destinies, think of the second.

we are who we want to be.
we are who we make ourselves to be.


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invincible

stumbled across something while watching a show, and liked it. thought of sharing it with you guys.


Invictus
-William Ernest Henley

Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeoning of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds, and shall find, me unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll,
I am the master of my fate :
I am the captain of my soul.

i guess, it tells us to pick ourselves up again, when we fall.
hold on and stand up for yourself,
don't give up,
even how painful,
I am the master of my fate,
I am the captain of my soul.

-invictus in latin means invincible


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that of which we call time

have you ever wondered what it would be like if we could turn back time?
pick up a clock and turn the hands and the day will go back a few hours?

a few days?
a few months?
a few years?

would we be able to change certain things that we wished never happened?

when i was younger and i used to get my fair share of scoldings, and there would always be one recurring silent wish, the wish to turn back time, to happier times.
where everyone smiled and where there was no tears, no screaming, just happy times. where i didnt do that silly mistake or be all naughty.

but does it really work that way?
does time really work that way?
what would changing the past do to the present? or even the future.
would we be the same person we are today, or just a person meant to be fixed it the future.
mended by ourselves.
will we be able to stumble and then pick ourselves up again without the knowledge that we can 'better' the past in the future.

what i really think is that because we cant change what we said or done in the past, really teaches us to live in the present. and take things as they come.
yeah of course, we reminisce about the 'last times' and how great it was compared to 'current times' but what we really forget when we start comparing and benchmarking 'now' and 'then' is that by doing that we will never be satisfied with what we have now.
the chance to be standing, and experiencing everything in the present.
making mistakes and learning from them.

take the days as they come, and leave tomorrow, for tomorrow and the past in the past.
we cant change the things we have done, we just have to live with it, and try correcting them as best we can.

let tomorrow worry for itself.
life is short, start living it!


*end*

ps, wishing my parents a very happy wedding anniversary!!!
how many years already ar?

life's little challenges

i was dragged into bio class today, by piriya. just because i didnt have econs.
and when i say drag, i mean drag.
piriya is actually pretty strong, for someone that skinny.
she really can man-handle you. now i know how david must have felt.LOL
maybe its those bionic arms of her's. how can i ever compete with metal?

so as payback, i made her come for lit class, as she didnt have physics.
but she wasnt that difficult to convince when it came to joining the class.
pree participated in our quizzes and i think she had fun. lit class is always fun. =D
anyway, it was a pretty fun day altogether.


and now to something i have been thinking lately.
my business studies lecturer asked the class this question, and i felt the answer pretty awesome, made me feel smarter and all philosophical :

'what is the one thing constant in our lives?' - (besides God)

i didnt know the answer, so i said things like life? death?
then my lecturer said that the one thing that is always constant in our lives is change. and to think of it, its so true. everything is evolving each day, changing bit by bit. like how we grow older and wiser with every new experiences in life.
the juxtaposition of the word constant and change just made it all the more amazing. it was very enlightening. =)

but my 'changes' haven't been all peachy. and it is at times like this, i feel lost in my own actions and silences. and the only thing i want is for the floor to open and swallow me whole.

i said this once to david, "i cant wait for change."
then he said, "why are you running away from your problems, by wanting change?"
*i may have quoted wrongly, but that's the gist lah*
so it got me thinking. i guess that's life's little challenges.
like my mum always say, its something everyone has to go through, sooner or later. its part of growing up.

'....but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold for me. Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing i do : Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.' Philippians 3 : 12-14


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things in mind

there have been a lot of things going on in my mind.
i've been getting pissed very often lately and it's starting to scare me a little.
i really dont know why. maybe its because the lack of rest and sleep is really getting to me. or maybe its because i choose to be cranky. or maybe i just get irritated very easily nowadays.
whatever it is, i really hope it goes away soon.

I MISS MY AFTERNOON NAPS BADLY!

anyway, my quote for the day.

'........the difference between stupid and ignorant [is] that ignorant could learn'
from Alias Grace, by Margaret Atwood.

the novel is kinda sick, like the joker.
batman was really cool!

'why so serious?'


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random thoughts

its been some time since i last updated my blog. nothing has really happened, so there isn't anything much to write about. but anyways, here's something random.

-the late but not so random announcement that,
SPAIN won!!!
im so happy! it really made my day, well, it includes the fact that i hardly slept at all, and that made me a little grouchy in the later part of the day. but, i must say that, it was worth the staying up for. Fabregas, though he didnt play as well as he did when Spain was playing against Russia, did pretty well. i like him!
i told my friends that i wanted a pillow case with his face on it, so i can sleep and drool all over him. LOL
Torres was good too, having scored the only goal. so i would say, go go Torres. maybe the haircut or the removal of his elastic hair band thing did the trick!

-the realization that this first week of classes, has been the most grueling and hectic week i have ever had in all the first week of college i have had.
in one word, it was CRAZY!

-the belief that we really cannot judge a book by its cover. and never judge before knowing.

-the complaint that washing clothes by hand is time-consuming and i dont like it.
thank God for the person who invented the washing machine, which is now fixed. yay!

-the thought that, my friends here are an awesome bunch.

-the evidence that God is real, and He is here with us everyday of our lives.

-the truth that im a lazy pig, who loves to eat, but complains about getting fat, and sleeps too much sometimes. but, looking at the hours i sleep nowadays, the latter seems to be out. haha.

-the excitement i feel, anticipating the coming CF camp. though im not necessarily fond of the idea of leeches. *shivers*

-the dread of rising food prices. my plate of rice became RM4. its really burning a hole in my pocket.

-the approaching time where all of us are to go our separate ways. exploring new places on our own. but im pretty confident that we will see each other again soon enough.

-the recurring fact that im having writers block now. so, im gonna stop here. LOL


*end*


ps, i miss my family.

when life throws you a lemon

im back home in Kuantan, for the holidays. 2 weeks, not much. but good enough. the exams had really taken up all my time. and its really difficult to find the time to go home. but here i am, blogging from kuantan, for the 1st time. it has always been back when i was in KL.

i really didn't know what to write. that's why there has been nothing new here. but my dad told me when i was half-awake, taking my nap in the afternoon. with my little first cousin once removed (found it out from wikipedia..haha) coming up to me trying to wake me up, that if i don't update, people would lose interest in reading my blog.
but who reads it anyway, a few of my college friends, my sister, my parents whenever they are free. and maybe my old classmates, and some other people. and myself, to check for spelling errors. LOL

but, its really fun actually. reading people's comment on your entries. its always something i find very funny. haha. i like it that way. i think its always better to put a smile on someone else's face than to spoil the mood.
a few of my friends told me before that they have never seen me pissed. well, if you asked pree, you'll know that i have. it wasn't a pleasant sight. ask my sister too, i can be pretty mean at times. =S

we were talking about that day a few days back, when we were going to to the usa edu fair, me and my friends. and i didn't realise that i got all PMS-sy on one of my friend's birthday. i couldn't really remember what day it was, except that it was a really really long day. one of those days that things didn't seem to go your way and it just kept getting worse and worse.
in a lot of ways, now that i think of it, i was pretty selfish. i really didn't care whether i would ruin her birthday mood, or whether i'll make people around me uncomfortable.

all i could think of was how pissed i was.
all i could think of was me, and how I felt that day.

and i know i kinda pissed some of my friends off. and i think i kinda ruin her birthday, and it only happens once a year. and it took me so long to realise that i was such an ass (sorry, couldn't find a better word) that day, now.

really sorry Regina. will definitely make up for it. =)


the inspiration behind this entry? well, i was going through the drawer of my new table in kuantan, well technically its my sister's but whatever.
and i found the box that regina gave me for my birthday with a cactus and a CD inside.
now, only the paper shreds and her card is left. there rest have been kept somewhere else.
that was what got me really thinking.

on the card it was written :

'Two are better than one, because they have a good return for their toil. For if they fall, one will lift up his fellow...' Ecclesiastes 4 : 9-10


*end*

ps, when life throws you a lemon, you make lemonade! =)